Crunch Time

So I'm getting married this Friday and I'm surprised that I'm not really all that nervous. This surprises me because it's only the biggest event of my life so far. I've wondered why I'm not nervous about it. I've come up with a few reasons to explain this.

First, I'm not nervous because I don't have time to be nervous. Between holding down a full time job and, transferring to BYU, and going to school part time this semester, I've hardly had time to breathe, much less be nervous about being married eternally to my sweetheart.

Next, I'm not nervous because in a lot of ways, I feel like I'm married already. I spend all of my time with my sweetheart, Nicole. We have had in depth discussions all a wide variety of topics including finances, sex, education, and children. We've come to agreement on most aspects of these essential topics. For example, we've talked extensively about how we will manage our money, track our expenditures, and what we'll spend our money on. We feel fairly confident that we'll be financially sound if we work hard and follow our plan.

Finally, I'm not nervous about getting married this Friday because the timing is right. Many times throughout our engagement I've had that confirmed to me. For example, I had been praying to Heavenly Father and telling him that I wanted to ask her to marry me, and asked for His approval. A perfectly timed conversation about marriage with a brother in law, followed by a conviction in my heart that I did have His approval, gave me the courage I needed to pop the question. I also remember a time recently in the shower where my mind seemed to be taken away into analyzing all of the different factors that contributed to the timing of my marriage, and I felt that it was perfect.

So, yes, I am taking the biggest step of my life, a step that will affect me every day for the rest of my life, but because of my experiences, my convictions, and a very busy schedule, I really don't feel nervous at all. I wonder how I'll feel about it Thursday night? Friday morning? It's definitely, definitely crunch time.